Below are the 20 most recent journal entries recorded in LunaPuella's LiveJournal:

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Monday, September 17th, 2007
11:13 am	What's all this "we" shit? You are right it's not we it's me that's the problem. So I walk away and there is no problem!! :) (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Tuesday, September 4th, 2007
4:19 pm	I'm back After 57 weeks I have decided to return to live journal. I blame my new blog addicted boyfriend and his shifty eye! (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Tuesday, August 1st, 2006
3:15 pm	Update Yes folks, I'm still alive. I haven't been updating because I haven't had the desire to list all the shitty things that have been happening to me over the past couple of months. So I'll just list a few. Before I do that, I have to say that life is going good right now, and I'll spend much more time updating about that next... Last semester I had the shittiest two student teaching placements, they were both poor inner city districts with lousy art teachers. I had a job I loved in the photo lab but then I had an art student stalking me so I had to stop working there. I figured being in the basement of the art building alone in a pitch black room with only one exit wasn't the best of all ideas. Especially when the kid lived across the street from the art building and was carrying a butchers knife around with him. Long distance relationships suck!!! Especially when you were dating a prick... My grandfather died a week before spring break. I destroyed my axel by riding over some huge chunk of wood that had fallen on an off ramp, then got a massive speeding ticket and four points, then crashed my car into a cement wall... I got violently ill for about two weeks but couldn't miss a day of student teaching. My best friend at college turned (more) psycho and we stopped talking. I turned (more)psycho on my best friend from home and we stopped talking. And I had a melt down on the day of my graduation because it was a horrible shitty ceremony which ended when the skies opened up and dumped Lake Eerie on Kutzown. I know there was more but that pretty much sums it up. Needless to say I am still recovering from the semester, but good things have been happening to me lately! I am moving out of my house!!! My brother and sister and law are the greatest people on the earth and letting me rent out their spare bedroom in exchange for taking care of their dog, and paying minimal rent!! I love their apartment and it has always been my refuge. I can't wait for that!! I still have a shitty job, but at least I'm making money. I know I need to find a better job NOW. My head is clearing now so Im gonna finally start looking for one. Oh, and I MET A GUY!!! I'm not saying much more than that just yet but will say :) (Comment on this)
Monday, January 23rd, 2006
10:40 pm	Did anyone tape the tv show 24 last night?? I'm desperate for a copy of the episode!!!!!! (Comment on this)
Tuesday, January 10th, 2006
12:30 pm	So I had a life boat on its way to me at the bottom of the ocean, it just sank... (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Thursday, January 5th, 2006
4:18 pm	this semester is sink or swim and as of right now i feel like im standing on the bottom of the ocean. (Comment on this)
Tuesday, January 3rd, 2006
7:09 pm	I never knew I was capable of fucking up my life so much. My depression has gotten so bad recently that I couldn't get out of bed until 3pm! I just couldn't muster up the strength. I don't deserve to feel anything but misery after what I've done recently to a few people in my life though. (Comment on this)
Friday, December 30th, 2005
12:00 am	I walked into this one. Has anyone ever felt 100% sure what they were doing was a huge mistake but they did it anyway? Yea that's where I'm at right now. (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Sunday, December 25th, 2005
1:49 pm	I am soo incredibly confused right now. I thought I had my life heading in the right direction but I've been thrown off kilter again. I thought I had things figured out, but I don't think I ever will. I'm looking for answers to the wrong questions. I can't let myself just exist, I've got to think I'm fucking something up, or should be doing something else. I'm also trying to figure out where my life will take me before I've graduated college. I'm stuck in Phoenixville until I go back to school, then I'm stuck in Kutztown for one more semester. After that, I could end up in Hawaii for all I know. I'm being pulled in so many directions right now that I seem to be going nowhere. (4 Comments |Comment on this)
Sunday, November 20th, 2005
4:57 am	The world doesn't owe us anything, but expects us to give it our all, it takes from us everything we've got. I screamed into the night, "this isn't fair!" I begged to know why, why must I endure this, why me? Then the night echoed back, "why you? Why were you lucky enough to be born into this life. Why were you not born in the streets , envious of even the poor, those with rooves over their heads, food on the table. Why were you lucky enough to be given the chance to struggle through an education so you may one day support yourself? Why were you lucky enough to have your heart broken again and again so you may someday find someone to love and someone to love you. Why are you expected to make a difference? Well why not you?" (Comment on this)
Sunday, November 13th, 2005
8:36 pm	"Ms Neff I ate my glue!" I thought this was the funniest song ever... The Art Teacher by Rufus Wainwright There I was in uniform Looking at the art teacher I was just a girl then; Never have I loved since then He was not that much older than I was He had taken our class to the Metropolitan Museum He asked us what our favorite work of art was, But never could I tell it was him Oh, I wish I could tell him -- Oh, I wish I could have told him I looked at the Rubens and Rembrandts I liked the John Singer Sargents He told me he liked Turner Never have I turned since then No, never have I turned to any other man All this having been said, I married an executive company head All this having been done, a Turner - I own one Here I am in this uniformish, pant-suit sort of thing, Thinking of the art teacher I was just a girl then; Never have I loved since then No, never have I loved any other man (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Thursday, November 10th, 2005
6:57 pm	Fuck you George Bush! Yea I said it...by cutting back on student loans you have officially declared war on both the poor and middle class. We get it, you are friends with the upper class, and only give a shit about your own kind, you utilitarian and hedonistic bastard! (7 Comments |Comment on this)
Sunday, October 30th, 2005
12:59 am	I loved and I lost, miserably, now tell me why is this better than never loving at all?? Ok, so it wasn't all bad, in fact it was a romance novel in the beginning and I don't regret any of it, well except for the part where I wasn't able to make it work anymore. I've realized our relationship ended as abruptly as it had begun. There was so much more I wanted to tell him and I can't grasp the fact that he will probably never speak to me again. I don't think he was too upset about the break-up though. He didn't say much on the phone when I talked to him, just accepted it was over and stopped talking. I guess he hasn't been happy in the relationship recently either. (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Friday, October 28th, 2005
12:10 am	Well I'm single again. I've learned if you love someone or something fucking fight for it damn it! Go kicking and screaming into the cold long night. Don't let life end with a whimper. I've also learned that you can't force someone to care about you, or listen to you. (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Sunday, October 16th, 2005
12:41 am	I've about had it. I can't take this anymore. (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Tuesday, October 4th, 2005
10:30 am	I know I do stupid things, I know everyone embarasses themselves, trips over their own shoes, burps, or blurts out a laugh at the wrong time, but something that is going to take some getting used to is embarassing yourself in front of an entire classroom and trying to cover it. I said something stupid in front of all of my peers in the most important class I have, after I made a poingnat point earlier in the class, and then was presenting vital information to be critiqued. I feel like after I had made the impression that I was knowledgable and professional, I had to say something stupid to make the class laugh. After running the event in my head, I realize the humor in the statement I said, and not specifically the fact that I said it, but I couldn't realize that at the time and apologized for saying it. So I had a chance to cover for my blunder, but I realized it too late. I'm not an idiot, but I know more often than not I come off as one. I guess I should just accept it and get used to it. (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Friday, September 30th, 2005
11:54 pm	Another example of misquoting the word of God by people who only hear what they want to hear. Consensus growing that homosexuality is at root of priest sexual abuse scandal... "I will not stand for My priests who condone homosexuality and allow it in My priesthood! I will not stand for My priests who allow the murder of the unborn with their permissiveness! I will not stand by and allow My priesthood to be destroyed!" - Jesus, June 18, 1982 LifeSiteNews.com reported on September 29, 2005 taken from http://www.tldm.org/News8/homosexualityPriesthood5.htm The release of the Grand Jury Report on the sexual abuse of minors by clergy in the Philadelphia Diocese highlights the danger of having homosexuals serving in the ministry, a pro-family group said today. The American Family Association of Pennsylvania (AFA of PA) reviewed the over 400-page report and found that of the 28 'Selected Case Studies' listed in the report the victims of 23 priests were males ranging in age from 11-18 and the victims of two priests were both male and female. This review also reveals the efforts by media to downplay the overall presence of male victims and concentrate on the three priests whose victims were strictly female and the two that victimized both male and female teens. "This is truly a tragic situation - men who have been placed in authority positions taking advantage of teenage boys. More importantly it highlights the need for the pope to carry forth with his plan to investigate U.S. seminaries for the presence of homosexuals," remarked Diane Gramley, president of the AFA of PA. Rod Dreher, editor of National Review Online writes: "Dr. Richard Fitzgibbons, an eminent Catholic psychiatrist who has treated scores of victims and priest-perpetrators, says 90% of his patients were either teen male victims or priests, or priests who abused teen boys." Because the victims are teenagers, this shows that the issue is not one of pedophilia as much as it is one of homosexuality. Father Donald Cozzens, an author, psychologist, and Catholic seminary president says that there is such a high percentage of gay priests in the church that he is concerned that "the priesthood is or is becoming a gay profession." A 2004 survey by John Jay College of Criminal Justice found that, of 10,667 individuals abused by priests between 1950 and 2002, 81 percent were male. "Additionally the Philadelphia Diocese situation shows the importance of the Boy Scout's policy not to allow homosexuals as Scout leaders as one of the priests abused boys in his Boy Scout troop," Gramley observed. "Victims of priests of the Philadelphia Diocese represent the tens of thousands young men around the nation who have been victimized. The AFA of PA commends the pope for his efforts to investigate the U.S. seminaries and work to prevent such abuse in the future," commented Gramley. (Comment on this)
11:47 pm	Vatican Readies Policy on Gay Priests Document to Forbid Ordination but Not Clearly Define 'Homosexual' Excerpts from article by Alan Cooperman Washington Post Staff Writer Friday, September 23, 2005; A03 The Vatican may soon issue a document saying homosexuals should not be ordained as priests, but without clearly defining the term "homosexual" or specifying how intrusively the church should look into the sexual background of seminary applicants, Vatican watchers and church officials said yesterday. The Vatican most recently reiterated that position in 2002, when the Congregation for Divine Worship, its department in charge of the Catholic sacraments, said that "a homosexual person, or one with a homosexual tendency, is not fit to receive the Sacrament of Holy Orders." An earlier draft that circulated in 2002 said that candidates with a "permanent, enduring" homosexual attraction should not be admitted to seminaries. But that language apparently has been dropped, leaving it unclear "where on the spectrum of sexuality -- from someone who once had a fleeting attraction 20 years ago, to someone who is actively involved in gay relationships right now -- seminaries are supposed to draw the line," Allen said. "I think someone who is living a good, chaste life and may be fighting some temptations, but you don't even know what they are -- I don't see how that would be a problem for that person," he said. "But if someone is cruising gay bars and promoting a gay lifestyle, someone who is saying it's all right, that it doesn't matter whether you've got this attraction or not, those kinds of people . . . should be in a different walk of life." A U.S. priest who says he is gay but celibate, and who spoke on condition of anonymity out of fear for his job, predicted that the document would push homosexual seminarians and priests further underground and ultimately be self-defeating. "If you're not going to allow people to speak openly with their rectors and spiritual advisers and friends, if you drive it underground, you'll have less psychologically healthy men, not more healthy ones," he said. "In their effort to address the sexual abuse crisis, they're re-creating the precise kind of environment that gave rise to it." The gay priest also said he deeply resented "this attempt to blame the whole pedophilia scandal on gay priests rather than on the bishops" who moved sexual abusers from parish to parish instead of reporting them to police. "If that's going to be the policy of the church as the church seeks to be its best self, then I'm going to accept what the church tells me," Silva said. "On the other hand, I would have an awful lot of compassion for men who are holy, celibate, chaste and who are homosexual and have served the church well." (Comment on this)
Wednesday, September 28th, 2005
4:23 pm	Question of the week If trash were to form a cocoon, what would emerge? (6 Comments |Comment on this)
Wednesday, September 21st, 2005
2:21 am	I think this is the most uninspired I have ever been while at KU. I'm unispired with my art, and disillusioned with my preparations for my techer candidacy. Does anyone have any suggestions? Take a notebook of questions, rip them up into tiny little pieces, put them in a box, then put a fan blowing out your window, and then dump the box of paper in front of the fan, now try to reorganize them and answer all of the questions, and that's about where I'm at in life right now. (Comment on this)